I cannot sleep. I get close to it and then I feel something brush against my leg...who knows what it is, the air probably, but it causes me to leap off the couch (because I cannot trust my bed right now) and do a crazy little dance that assures me I'm fine.
I know they are out there. They are laughing at me. They are holding meetings on how to best torture me and it is working.
I thought I was okay, ready to sleep in spite of the light being on, when there it was. And I thought it was a legitimate insect or mini crustacean...but I must have been mistaken since I saw nothing.
It was 5 a.m. and I couldn't take it anymore. I jumped in the shower to scrub away all the imaginary bugs. Terrified, I pictured the floor crawling with the evil things, not a clear patch for me to step on. I whipped open the shower curtain and they disappeared.
I think I'm going crazy. I'm sitting on the couch wrapped in a blanket watching the Disney channel trying to fend off any invaders. The I one I want won't come---sleep. I need to sleep! But how can I when the second I enter the subconscious is the second I am overrun?
I have no idea what to do, either. I've thought about running to Wal-Mart to buy--I don't know what, but something to protect me and catch them. I've thought about going to the hospital and checking myself into the psych ward. I've thought about praying them away...but I can't close my eyes. I'm shaking I'm so paranoid!
I hate bugs. And I know I don't have it that bad. I'm in a house with only a few actually sighted bugs. It's all in my head.
Am I nuts?
About Me
- Naomi
- I am just a girl, trying my best to live my life to God's glory and gain. I am not perfect, but I strive to be like Christ. I am motivated beyond all belief to follow my heart, fulfill my ambitions, and to keep on dreaming. If you can dream it, you can do it--don't let anything hold you back. People say, "dream big." I say, "Dream bigger."
3 comments:
Naomi! I was just thinking about you and saw this on your facebook.
You're not crazy. I'm terrified of them! My first day of school of freshmen year campus safety came. I had been screaming at the top of my lungs in my sleep because of spiders... now I can't even sleep in the same from with a spider if I see one. It's OKAY!
Miss your voice in Chapel Choir and <3 you!
Sarah Ashcroft
yes ur totally nuts lol ;)
maybe the bugs are messengers from god, but you keep casting away his prophets.
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